Dear ones,
Today I start with a link:
http://www.womenandearth.ch/seiten/PDF/Forgiveness08.pdf
It is about a seminar I'm going to attend in September, that I look forward to very much. It is about dying and the value of it.
Strangely enough, in my internship here in Berlin, the topic is very present as well. I work in a hospital here, with really wonderful colleagues that teach me about life and physiotherapy.
The intensive care unit is a place I go to these days, and in the beginning it was okay. Then I realized where I was, and that made me feel a bit.. .well.. sad.. and now it is a work I am happy to do. For now. And what is also nice is that I learn a lot of competences, and that the place allows me to grow.
There is so much to learn, and time is short. Only three months. However, I stay in downtown Kreuzberg, the core of it (as I was told!). In a wonderful and beautiful little appartment. Finally the first time I stay "alone" there. It is quiet, it is a wonderful space.
There is a storm just now roaming over the city. It is a large city, with many places to discover. And it seems pretty easy to get lost in it. You have of everything so much, and it is cheap and of high quality.
Now, the world is spinning fast. Funnily enough, the contact with the people here has been little thus far. There was just no time for it.
That will change now, and my social life is getting some resuscitation...
To all the people who read this, I'd like to share this poem with you as well. Just because it is so beautiful, and I deeply believe in every word of it:
As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering
are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth.
Today, I know, this is "AUTHENTICITY".
As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody
as I try to force my desires on this person,
even though I knew the time was not right and the person was not ready for it,
and even though this person was me.
Today I call it "RESPECT".
As I began to love myself I stopped craving for a different life,
and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow.
Today I call it "Maturity".
As I began to love myself I understood that at any circumstance,
I am in the right place at the right time,
and everything happens at the exactly right moment.
So I could be calm.
Today I call it "SELF-CONFIDENCE".
As I began to love myself I quit steeling my own time,
and I stopped designing huge projects for the future.
Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness,
things I love to do and that make my heart cheer,
and I do them in my own way and in my own rhythm.
Today I call it "SIMPLICITY".
As I began to love myself I freed myself of anything
that is no good for my health - food, people, things, situations,
and everything the drew me down and away from myself.
At first I called this attitude a healthy egoism.
Today I know it is "LOVE OF ONESELF".
As I began to love myself I quit trying to always be right,
and ever since I was wrong less of the time.
Today I discovered that is "MODESTY".
As I began to love myself I refused to go on living in the past
and worry about the future.
Now, I only live for the moment, where EVERYTHING is happening.
Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it. "FULFILLMENT".
As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb me
and it can make me sick.
But As I connected it to my heart, my mind became a valuable ally.
Today I call this connection "WISDOM OF THE HEART".
We no longer need to fear arguments,
confrontations or any kind of problems with ourselves or others.
Even stars collide, and out of their crashing new worlds are born.
Today I know THAT IS "LIFE"!
Charlie Chaplin
