23:08PM
I miss you
Today is the first time ive really felt homesick during my trip. Earlier I cried after reading something that Beca sent me, and now im reading over letters from the children from the orphanage in Ghana, reading Becas and soon to read sams letter from the airport.
Theres a part that I just read now in Beca's letter that made me cry again, i miss laying in my room with beca and not having to say a word and understanding eachother, i miss having really thoughtful conversations with sam and watching her silly fights with mama, i miss mums smothering but soothing hugs, i miss dads humor, i miss walking the dogs in the morning, i miss waking up to their begging eyes outside my window, i miss My house, i miss My family, i miss My world. But i know im learning and experiencing so much, its a torn feeling between being here and there. I miss home but im also happy here. But no place is like home, no one can compare to my family. I love and miss them so so much.
Dad, mum, sammy, beca, buddy, tommy, i miss your love. And I crave your company.
Please know that not a day goes by without me thinking about you all (especially my doggies :P).
I have just under 9 weeks left, I know the time will fly because Ill be doing el camino de santiago compostela and going to Switzerland, but at the same time I know that each day onwards my desire to be home will increase. I cannot wait for Christmas this year, to be home, to be understood, to be cared for with a motherly touch, to be with my sisters, my dogs, to see dad's smile that lets me know that he's proud of me, painting, the list is neverending.
I miss home, but im here now and not there, later I will be there. Later i will be there, Home, with a rested heart, bliss mind and a mountain of stories.
I miss you and love you more than anything else in this world.
I am safe, happy, healthy and so pleased to be alive.
Thank you for always supporting me, without you I wouldn't be half the person I am today.
You have given me the confidence to treat the world as a place without boundaries and taught me to respect my life as a gift.
Always, your darling daughter and sister.
Julia
