I wanted to write some more about Psalm 143 since the other day's post was so short. Thank you so much to all of you who answered immediately with encouragement - what a blessing! I realized after I read your comments that I may have caused more worry than I meant to. I read this psalm a few days ago and the Lord really instructed me a lot through this. I was super encouraged by this psalm. When I got your comments I went back and reread it and realized that it's kind of a heavy in some ways (especially at the beginning). Yet, God used these dark words to completely uplift my spirit!
It was hard when I first arrived in India. Things were pretty different here. I'm one of 4 white kids. It smells different. People like to stare at us. No one speaks English. Tobin kind of smells...just kidding :) but seriously all this was a lot to take in at first...beyond all these changes there is an apparent darkness that I was feeling all the time...every time we drove past an idol I felt a little weary...you can just feel the weight of the hopelessness of people who are serving a religion that is simply emptiness...to say it briefly I was pretty scared the first few days.
Then I read this psalm. I was overwhelmed by the presence of God with me (even on the other side of the world in India)! We serve a god who greets us with His lovingkindness in the morning, who we can trust in, who instructs our Spirit in the way we should walk, who delivers us from darkness, who is good, who is righteous, and who has the power to destroy any fears, darkness, weariness, or emptiness that I was facing. Praise the Lord!
I hope this makes a little more sense and I would appreciate that you would continue to keep this psalm in mind as you pray for me and also as you pray for the people of India. I love and miss you all! Thanks again for all your words of encouragement. I hope the 25th is as good for you as it was for me! (haha)
meg