During the past few years, every once in awhile I have seen a strange dream or nightmare not sure which one. I am slightly afraid of heights amd in these dreams I am on a platform on high up above the sea or lake. I am afraid to death of falling down but apparently I am suppose to jump and I am feeling fear so strongly. Needless to say that I don't actually have a cord attached to me. I have kind of connected these dreams some sort of a transit period or a change in my life. Probably kitchen psychology but I considered them fear of a change in my life but on the other excited of a change as well.
Today I was really in this situation as I was about to jump off from 134m. Last night after a few drinks I imagined I would look down and jump with a smile on my face and without fear. I didn't go quite go like that. I was nervous and barely able to jump, I was standing on the edge and though I cannot do this. You kind of have just jump and but everything else behind. I am not sure whether I actually jumped after all but slipped off the platform. It was rainy and platform was slippy you see. You got about 8s of freefall, you can feel it and it is mindblowing experience. WOW. I didn't feel insecure Iwas sure that the cord will hold and nothing bad is going to happen to me, it just the fact that it is scary to be so high up. I am glad I did it,
I purchased a video clip as a proof but the link it is not working at the moment. Fingers crossed that they haven't messed it up completely. Will follow up whenever I get it sorted out. I am heading to Milford sound early tomorrow morning. Let's see whether I am gonna see a dream I am about to jump down or maybe this real life experience wiped those dreams for good out of my subconscience.
