Stubborn & Hell-Bent Following that guiding force ...

I think it's safe to assume that most people do not understand anyone else - what they feel, why they do the things they do, what they think about, or what's important to them. The human mind is this crazy world housed inside the shell of our body - a mixture of strange biological electrical currents combined with the mysteries of the human soul. How are we to understand any of that even within ourselves - let alone someone else!
I've always felt that not many people truly get what I'm saying, I can usually see that look in their eyes where they think they get it but something just isn't clicking and they're still slightly lost. Usually accompanied by the nodding of the head, followed by the raising of an eyebrow. But really, how can you expect someone else’s being to understand your own - it's no one else’s to know. So seeking for approval in others will only leave you feeling frustrated and misunderstood. So I gave up on that long ago and realized that my life is meant for me to understand and no one else. I think a lot can be figured out if you pay attention to the quiet signals that your mind tells you, if you can block out the external chaos and focus on what your body and mind are telling you. I think I've had the opposite experience than a lot of people, where I often don't hear the external - or maybe i do but the internal speaks louder and seems to be the bully that pushes its way thru to always come out on top.
Sometimes it feels like I've been given the cheat sheet. that no matter where i go or what i do there's always someone hiding in the shadows giving me hints on where to go and what to do. I just get to breeze along and let them guide me. You never know if that information is going to lead you down a road you don’t want to go, but over the years i've learned to follow with complete and total faith, no room for question. I just close my eyes and glide along. How else could I feel completely secure and comfortable flying across the world with no plan and nothing but my backpack? It's not that I'm blissfully unaware of the dangers of life or that I'm ignorant to think that i'm invincible - it's just that I have found a guiding force that has yet to prove me wrong, that has yet to lead me down a path i haven't wanted to go. Something tells me to take this adventure, the same thing that's always guided me to go somewhere or do something, the same thing that makes it impossible for me to do something i dont want to do. A force not to be ignored. Sometimes I've wished that I would be happy doing the normal thing, that I didn't need to follow a path that often takes me away from holding the hands of people around me, that i could follow the life that comes with the pre-paved roads ... but this is who i am and if it really came down to it i wouldn't change a thing.
So it may seem a tad irresponsible to be flying off with no plan in mind, but there is an unfolding plan that will be revealed as it needs to be - and apparently not a moment sooner. I think my ability to trust my instincts comes from that fact that i accept that there are no wrong turns, that i truly believe that no matter what - life will unfold as it should. so really, why not kick back and relax and let the flow of the river guide you!