She's Come Undone

So here I am...at my local spot, Sugarhouse Coffee, sippin' on an espresso and worrying. Worrying about the law. Running from the law. Warrant for my arrest? NO! ME???? Not me??? But yes...that's what happens when you don't have the cash to pay for a 200 dollar speeding ticket. That's what happens when paying for a speeding ticket is the last thing on your to do list. Hm. I just didn't want to hand money over to the state like that. Now I am dealing with the consequences. Let's see if I can make it to Ireland, now! Suspended driver's license due to not paying the ticket...AHHHH!!! Woe is me! Let's see if I can get my passport! These bumps....when will they be smoothed out? Honestly...I'm a retard! There is just that huge part of me that's wants to be taken off the grid so badly! I don't even incorporate myself into the whole capitalist scheme...I feel I just don't mentally belong. I believe I don't belong...until I'm having to owe the state money for fear of my criminal record. Not paying a ticket...does that mean I'm a criminal? So weird! Never thought it would be me! Anyways...going over it over and over again in my head won't help things. All I can do is hope...and PRAY...that I will be handed my passport at 3 o'clock Monday the 22nd. All I can do is PRAY. lkadsjg;lkadsjgmm.....WOE IS ME!