The application process was pretty exciting. Trying to be patient while waiting to find out if I'm accepted or not. It's weird working so hard towards something that you don't know if you're even going to get to do.
We had some issues getting my references in, one got lost in the mail. Absolutely terrible and heart breaking. I struggled with not being accepted. Very upset. Truthfully, I was mad with God. I was so upset that I had been praying for answers: Where He wants me, What He wants me to do. He gave me this program and I followed but then He took it away. Why? Why would He do that? The main part of my struggle was that I knew I shouldn't be feeling that towards God. That I shouldn't be directing my anger towards Him because He always has a plan.
When I finally got over myself and my feelings, I figured it out. They gave two choices in the email I received telling me it was all full. One was to be put on a waiting list, just in case someone dropped out. Two was to have my forms past on to another school. I prayed and argued and thought and fought. The outcome was getting them to hand my forms off to the other school.
This school sounds super cool! Instead of three months in class and three months in the field, I'll be spending two weeks in class and two weeks on the field every month. Instead of being based in Australia and going to only one other country, I'll be going to a new country every month. This will cost me another 3 grand more than I thought it would but I'm sure it's worth it.
I don't exactly know why this is what's happening, but God has this plan for me and I've decided not to fight it. My father, with his once and a while wise words, said that perhaps someone I'm supposed to work with didn't get accepted to that one, maybe I'm not ready with God yet, maybe my relationship with my parents isn't ready for me to leave yet? There are so many outcomes. All I know right now is that I wouldn't have known about this Around the World program unless I had applied and not gotten accepted to the other one. It was rough, but in the end I'll be so happy with the way things played out.
