Discover your fear. Discover your freedom. Discover your road. Discover yourself.

I remember myself. Too young and too stupid (at least it seems so to me now). But in the same time I think I was wiser than now. I had lots of fears. And it used to help me sometimes. But usually it caused obstacles. I used to be “homie” child who had huge fear of heights and problems with open space. And I went in my first mountain hiking trip. It was in Carpathians. I remember my guide so vivid as if I saw him yesterday. Bearded guy with penetrating eyes who seemed to be born in mountains. It was my first real fight with myself. Psychologically it was much harder for me than for anyone in my group. But whatever point we intended to reach I was every time one of the first who did that. Once while camping on the lake I went in mountains alone. I went without anything. Without food, water, warm clothes. Only with my pure fear. I decided finally to dot all i’s and cross all t’s on that page of my life. I can’t explain what was going on with me while being one-by-one with myself. But suddenly I realized that there’s nothing at all to afraid of - neither heights nor depth. Whatever it’d be. World is impressive, exciting, dangerous. World is big. But as long as you don’t let yourself to hide in your fears you’re bigger. I went back late at night. All guys were sleeping in their tents excepting my guide who was sitting near small campfire. I saw on his face that he was surfing in his thoughts and just automatically keeping fire alive. I didn’t want to disturb him. But it was inevitable. I remember I told him that sometimes it came up here more difficult than I’d expected it to be. I was lying because I’d actually came there already with expectation of the worst things that could ever happen in mountains. But I didn’t want to open all that was unfolding in my soul. But I think up to that time he’d already understood everything about me. Or at least the most important part. And he said: “We all are here by virtue of our fears. And we enjoy being here because some part of us stays deeply terrified. As soon as we become able to accept our fears but not fight with them everything’s coming up easier”.