Greyveilz

I still question myself if all this that I lead myself into in life is what I honestly want. My actions confuse me. Two way minded..one side wants to go right the other left. Leaving me undecided and lost. In order to answer myself I need to find the answer and as simple and insane as that sounds I can't seem to wrap my mind around the thought. It spiralled me into a pit of confusion and fake laugher with hidden cries. It's the same song and dance on repeat. Finding my satisfactions in life is the hardest thing for me to endure. My mother always called me selfish but in reality I'm just undecided and I don't realize the gratitude of my actions. I may be a bitch.. A sweetheart.. Mature... Smart.. Lovely.. Well whatever. But I'm actually just only confused. And I don't know how to express it all without looking stupid or feeling under the weather about it all. I lead myself into the hard side of life where I just cannot decide so the answer is .. Find the answer. But where the fuck is the answer.