contentment. is that my excuse? laziness?...
this isn't the first post i've written delving into why i neglect this blog. i can never really pin it down. it's not as if i don't have anything to write. i've been active with the onset of spring here in sokcho. rock climbing adventures. get togethers with friends. teaching. perhaps it relates to my last post. that i really don't like sitting in front of my computer. or that i find too many distractions when i do. maybe i've shaped this blogging thing into a chore. something i feel like i must force out. maybe i'm just feeling antiexpressive these days. that i have no desire to share my thoughts on here. in my life outside this screen, i often go through stints of antisocial. like a turtle in its shell, i retreat from the world, an introvert. a quiet contrast to the extroverted me i can be.
with this blogging thing, i think that what it comes down to is a matter of creative expression. creativity is never a constant for me. my ability to explore the inner workings of my imagination to give birth to some thing or to some voice of expression is not always there. but i believe creativity can be nurtured. like any skill, it can be honed through constant practice. some of my most productive spurts of writing on here were when i made myself sit down and write, regardless of whether i felt the urge or not. i may just need to remind myself of the difference between a chore and good self discipline. let's see how that works out...
