Be inspiring fighter

I'll never forget the day that I asked my father travelling to Sudan to continue my education
Since 3 years ago
That was the start for me
Everything was changed in my soul

Faithfully i can say: " I fall in love with this country"
After days I could understand why this feelings?
The native people love people whose have my nationality "Egyptians" and They called them "the Nile's sons"
I loved them and they were very kind with me in all needs
My study's time Synchronize with " war of Darfur in south of Sudan"
This war was painful, destructive and extremely grievous

My old neighbor had a poor servant and his wife
They escaped from Darfur searching for peaceful life in ElKhartoum in The north of Sudan

Ymanda " was the name of young wife .I was curious to talk to her
But they can't speak Arabic or English, may be their tongue is Portuguese Or another dialect accent

Once we talked by eyes language and hand's signals
Ymanda was very sad and suffering
Something inside her is painful and extremely awful

It was the first date to meet sadness by this near and this clearness
I fastly loved Ymanda so i spend a lot of spare time watching her drawing in silence , deep silence!
all drawings were about bleeding child or crying babies and afraid faces !
Even now I couldn't know if she had babies and killed in Darfur's war or no?

Those days I lost my sweet heart in an accident and this broken my heart
Ymanda become my dear friend

When they run away from their home
Carried a small brown goat with white ears
The goat was so funny and cheerful .Except it's wide eyes that full of scare and tears

Then I asked myself if glitter of its eyes because of war or normally in this kind of animals??
I called it " Deda "
Yamanda , Deda and me played together for some happy days

But everything has an end !
I finished my exams ,so i would travel soon
I asked from Ymanda and Deda take a photo to keep it with me
This picture was amazing which blends all types of sad
Sad of sweet heart's death ,Sad of sweet Home's departure and Sad of something unknown

I named this picture "First date with sadness"
One month ago my family and me moved out our house and get a new one
In transit I lost my lovely sad photo !

Then I realized that sadness not be bored with me yet
I missed Sudan very much and still do

I want to round the whole world
To find happiness which maybe just a photo will disappear after days
But its effect remains forever in my soul .