Another way

I was crying a lot. Why I decided to go to Taiwan anyway? My roomate and also my stronger opponent tried to calm me down in vain. It was only my third week in Taiwan and I was already falling apart.
You couldn't jugde me for that, you know? The challenge I was facing was the hardest till that point of my life: to learn how to perform a character in a Chinese play, dancing and speaking Chinese in one day.
The performance would be in the next afternoon for hundreds of Chinese people plus all the cameras and the production crew. Oh yeah, I was in a television show in Taiwan, the third episode to be more specific. And I had to do it well, or my team would lose and go to the elimination round.
On that night I almost gave up everything and came back to Brazil, I kept trying to remember my moves and lines, and I kept crying for not remembering it well. I kept asking me why I decided to do that with me, putting such a huge preassure I almost couldn't stand with, putting myself in that crazy, challeging situations, without a clear objective (not one that I could see on that moment).

The next morning my face and body could tell you what a awful night I had. Looking at myself on the mirror I realized all the worries I had were not helping me at all. Actually, it was making the situation even worse.
So I wouldn't get a prize for best theatre actress, but I wouldn't die if all ended badly. The people in the theatre (hopefully) also wouldn't throw rotten tomatoes on me because of a bad performance. So what?
The name of the show was FUN Taiwan Challenge for a reason. That should be FUN, and not a self-flagellation experience. So I would have fun with it.

And it was fun. I still couldn't remember all my lines, so I made it up, and whatever those words I said meant in Chinese, the public were laughing a lot. My moves were clumsy, but I could perform without getting in the way of my other colleagues. I was still nervous, but I was also very happy. I did it.

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From that day on, I promised myself I wouldn't give up on any challenge in that show or in my life. I was stronger than I thought I could be and I was able to do anything I wanted.
We were ten people in that third episode*, and I ended up getting the fourth place in the show.

*the third episode was NOT (by far) the most challenging episode on the show.