life

early spring we met L and took a bus from Bitpazar and to Shutka, it was a city within a city, small and unknown to the world, or maybe just to Macedonia, to people living out of this comunity. we walked in the rain, round the streets covered with mud, and spilling water
holes. around people, eyes, some music and the smell of the heating fire and burning plastics, the
smoke, the colorful houses of different types, "baraka"- some shelters made of tin, ruins of walls,
some small houses with and without windows, flying curtains, transparent to privacy and some
extreme opposites of this too, big houses, covered with gold paint, and imperial "glamour", gated
gardens, and empty houses.
streets all in mud and filled with water after the rain and grey light passing clouds and air making
tension to the shoulders, children in the streets saying hello to unknown, and their playground brand
new but locked, saying donation and inside the playground mayors photo and
eyes that make you feel guilt for not being born in this streets and making
guilty of having warm shoes and not being in theirs and feel the way they touch the ground. and the music continues, and the picture of a
little girl supported to a wall next to some stairs, covering her head with her hands, and another
trying to warm up by burning her school bag, followed us till we got to the playground and saw the
grills that were forbidding the children for to enter and play, some eyes in a poster and a lock. One of the
moments seeking courage for to capture all this in a picture, but no way my hand not able to move,
fingers dizzy, of all this emotional state of mind called MONEY and POWER, being build around the main city
centre project SKOPJE 2014, "for the people".
....
took a buss from Shutka confusion and furious anger to this ignorance and on the way back, many questions
with no answers.
On the way back some troubles blocked streets, and we went out of the bus, and got the direction of
the stone bridge passing through the old part of Skopje on feet. when we reached the stone bridge
there were too much police man and military special forces, we had no idea what is happening, saw
some people running, some shouting some screaming, there were some gun shots, panic, running,
running…
the bridge Goce Dellcev was blocked by the military vehicles, while running many thoughts running
up my head...
16. 04. 2012