for those of you that read my crazy intense ramblings i posted last time, congratulations.. otherwise i've taken it offline for the moment.. mostly as i don't entirely feel way anymore.. there's still a part of me that does, but for the past week it was supplanted by something else.. something certain.. and felt amazing.. i mean beyond anything i could ever describe.. in fact the whole of last week is beyond anything i can sort through in any sort of rational way.. and nothing exceptional happened on the outside.. except that everyone who saw me looked at me with this completely different attitude (probly cuz i was glowing on the outside as much as i was on the inside.. i certainly couldn't stop smiling much.. )
maybe i found what i'm looking for.. a first step.. maybe not.. it doesn't really matter.. but friday we go to khajuraho and after that maybe i'll sort it all out.. maybe not.. maybe i'll never bother "sorting things out" ever again.. who knows..
that's that..
so a nice 6am train ride friday morning to jhansi and 12-14 hours later a bus or taxi to khajuraho. then we'll stay until dewali is over 9 Nov. and i'll prob. go Varanasi. in the meanwhile i'll have managed to shuck half of my 'belongings'. gave my first aid stuff to Ashli from Boulder who's volunteering at a local hospital / ashram. giving my clothes away to the village people in Khajuraho. my shoes and extra sandals.. i really should have come with the clothes on my back and an empty backpack, save the camera ipod etc.. next time...
so i'll keep y'all posted. hope all is well.. red sox won the world series.. whaddya know.. figures.. i watched all year cuz i had a feeling they would. now it doesn't seem all that important. but yay anyway. tikke. namaste. :))
